“There’s nothing wrong with perceiving things differently,” my therapist says “Why do you need a diagnosis?” he asks “Can’t you just understand/say that you’re neurodivergent?” he adds.

I have to fill in a form with a long-ass diagnosis because apparently, I’m not autistic enough to just be autistic.

“Labels are not necessary”

I have to get a disability card, but I’m “just neurodivergent”.

“I told you so you could find a community that could help you, I’m not giving you an Autism diagnosis”

I feel fake in that community, you just told me I’m not Autistic

“It’s a spectrum”

Then am I in it?

“You have shared traits”

Then what am I?

“Neurodivergent”

That’s pretty fucking vague, isn’t it?
Now I just feel lonelier.

neurodivergent neurodiversity neurodivergence feeling lonely ranting autism maybe i dont know

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reading a paper on quality of life among 45-to-70-year-olds with Down syndrome:

“Individuals expressed a desire to be allowed to go to bed when they wanted to.”

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Imagine.

I lived in a room and board that failed the burrito test. (”If you’re not allowed to get up in the middle of the night to microwave a burrito, you live in an institution.”) No one stopped me from going to bed, but they did tell me I had to have my lights out by 10, and that I had to be out of the house by 10 the next morning. When I complained to my outpatient program that I needed more help than I was getting, they threatened me with board and care, where my cell phone would be taken away and I would lose contact with the outside world. My case manager sounded so damn smug, like he had caught me out, when he said, “if you’re really as helpless as you say, then you need to be in a board and care.” Like my only options were struggling to do things I couldn’t do, or surrendering my life to an institution.

When I tried to talk about these things with other people, they always rationalized it away. (I told my dad once that my caseworker was reading my e-mails as I wrote them, demonstrating extreme disrespect for my privacy, and he said, “Well, she’s probably making sure you don’t use the internet to goof off.” I was 22 years old.)

 People tend to mock the idea that telling an adult when to go to bed, when to eat, etc., is a human rights violation, even though they would find it outrageous and absurd if anyone came into their lives to do the same thing to them.

And this is what people seem to think when they tell disabled activists we’re just not disabled enough to understand that some people really do need to be locked up and deprived of all autonomy.

Here’s the paper:

https://library.down-syndrome.org/en-us/research-practice/06/3/quality-life-ageing-down-syndrome/

They don’t want *any* activists for mentally/developmentally disabled people. If you’re able to advocate for your rights, you’re not “disabled enough” - and if you were disabled enough you wouldn’t be able to advocate for your rights.

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I think cis allies should start beating the shit out of anyone trotting out the trans = groomer line

No this is not a joke or hyperbole. They are trying to get people killed. Beat them up. Scare them. Make them fucking bleed. Teach them a lesson.

The facists have found this post and are upset lmao

Anyway hope you get your teeth smashed in 😘

I saw a video a while back where some nazi was clearly antagonizing outside of a drag show and one of the people responded “Do something then.” And the nazi (already cowering back mind you) asked, “oh so you can get me with a hate crime?” And the guy with full rage said, “No so I can fucking kill you.”

More of that please.

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Painting of people standing with cows, but in a style that looks like Playstation 1 graphicsALT
Painting of divers jumping into a swimming poolALT
painting of someone driving a car, a person on the side of the road looking like they're about to throw some snowALT
painting of a dog walking along a bridge. The dog REALLY looks like late 1990s or early 2000s video game graphicsALT

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What the fuck

This is absolutely fascinating. I’ve now been looking at Alex Colville’s paintings and trying to work out what it is about them that makes them look like CGI and how/why he did that in a world where CGI didn’t exist yet. Here’s what I’ve got so far:

- Total lack of atmospheric perspective (things don’t fade into the distance)

- Very realistic shading but no or only very faint shadows cast by ambient light.

- Limited interaction between objects and environment (shadows, ripples etc)

- Flat textures and consistent lighting used for backgrounds that would usually show a lot of variation in lighting, colour and texture

- Bodies apparently modelled piece by piece rather than drawn from life, and in a very stiff way so that the bodies show the pose but don’t communicate the body language that would usually go with it. They look like dolls.

- Odd composition that cuts off parts that would usually be considered important (like the person’s head in the snowy driving scene)

- Very precise drawing of structures and perspective combined with all the simplistic elements I’ve already listed. In other words, details in the “wrong” places.

What’s fascinating about this is that in early or bad CGI, these things come from the fact that the machine is modelling very precisely the shapes and perspectives and colours, but missing out on some parts that are difficult to render (shadows, atmospheric perspective) and being completely unable to pose bodies in such a way as to convey emotion or body language.

But Colville wasn’t a computer, so he did these same things *on purpose*. For some reason he was *aiming* for that precise-but-all-wrong look. I mean, mission accomplished! The question in my mind is, did he do this because he was trying to make the pictures unsettling and alienating, or because in some way, this was how he actually saw the world?

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wildlife returning to your dash :)

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and yet, life remains

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the fire died out. we’re recovering

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